an apple or an orange?

What is the most important thing to you? Relationships with people and dear friends, your future, your security, achievements, success, relationship with your family? This line is really bugging my head right now. How I rate this one is the basis of my decision. If it's a luck or a matter of my decision making is a story that I keep to myself. I have reasons, we all have reasons, everyone has reasons. But I need not explain my reasons, deep in my heart I know what I am doing. Deep inside I know what to lose and what to gain. We win some we lose some or the other way around. Life is not fair, it is always like that, we can't fight that fact. It is given, it's for us to respond and to interact. But how does it feel to disappoint someone you consider very dear and very precious to you? How does it feel to see that person in pain? I can't say I'm sorry because it is not as easy as that. If I will choose not to disappoint those people I value, then I lose something I regret. Which is better? An apple or an orange?